I Don't Need Stars In The Night

I tried to enroll for my second year class earlier because it’s getting a late now. Everyone was telling me that I should go early because the line in the admission is longer than Lady Gaga’s hair. And it was! Good thing I’m with my guy friends and they accompanied me while waiting. After the looong wait in the line, my number was finally called and they I paid and then we went to ST Quad for pre-advice subjects.

The crowd at ST Quad is too much to hold! People are pushing each other just so they can get the subjects that they need. I tried to copy some subjects but I gave up. The people are just crazy! This was what forced me to just enlist subjects tomorrow. I mean, I can’t just dive into that huge crowd just so I could get the subjects that I need.

Now, besides from that shitty crowd that made me go home late for nothing, I was also sad because my two College Algebra best friends are transferring to another school. We were just really close that I can’t believe I’m enrolling for another College Algebra class without them. I wanted to but can’t cry. I rode in LRT train again earlier, which I haven’t for a very long time, and I felt so saaad because I used to ride that with my best friends. I was saying goodbye to them in my mind when I went down to my station and it’s so saaad that I’m so clooose to cryiiing!

I just lost my College Algebra, lunch, and train best friends. And now, I’m like in the middle of nowhere, I just feel so alone.

I’ll write here about my college friends and how I badly miss them. I’ll also write how I feel about my high school friends now.

There’s something about my college friends that keeps me perfectly happy. I mean, compared to my high school friends, they’re happy to be with but not that “really” happy. There’s a difference between being happy because you really are having nice fun and being happy because they’re also happy.

I both love my high school and college friends but both in different ways.

I never get tired of going to school because I know I’ll be seeing my college friends. I love that feeling of smiling, laughing, and loving every minute. The bonding that we share is priceless. My college friends are like my second family. We eat together, drink together, and play together. This common line perfectly describe them: They’re always there when you need them.

My high school friends are fun to be with also. But there are times when they don’t stop even though you’ve had enough. There are times when I feel “OP” from them and there are times where I think their jokes aren’t funny anymore. Sort of like, insulting. I love my high school friends. But when the time comes that it isn’t fun anymore, I leave them.

I miss my college friends so much.

In conclusion, my college friends keep me company when I need them. Just one text or Facebook message, they respond quickly. On the other hand, my high school friends goes through different stages of thinking before they actually join you.

(Source: ladyxgaga)

Louis’ birthday party yesterday. The first party that I went to and not enjoying everything.

Things went a little wrong, and I dunno why.

You see, I never really focus on little things that slightly affect me. But when I do, I never just leave it until it becomes bigger and complicated.

A guy friend who usually texts me and sends me group messages didn’t seem to send me his message earlier. I was with my friends when he sent that message. Everyone got his message, except me. I was a little curious, and knowing that it’s just a simple little group message, I just ignored him on not sending it to me.

We went to another of my friend’s house for his birthday party. And while we were having fun, that message that wasn’t sent to me kept going into my mind. Things got a little more complicated and while thinking, things have gone a little wrong.

I felt a little “OP” from everyone. Everyone was like talking to each and I feel like they’re aren’t inviting me. I did a little observation and yes, they’re not noticing me anymore. I’m not craving for attention, but rather hoping for invitation. I went home not that really happy but still my friends kept me in company upon going home.

There are a lot of things that disturbed me tonight (or should I say last night for it is already 12:30AM). It’s very weird that I know I shouldn’t be thinking about this but yet I still do. I hope sleeping can give me the “clear cache” I need.